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Day 157 of 366

If someone is going to ask me how I will build my home, I will tell them this:

I will build a home where nobody is afraid of tomorrow. Where things is not as scary as the stories of the monster under the bed. A place where everybody loves the sunrise the same way they love the sunsets. 

I will build a home where voices does not need to be raised to be understood. Where shouting is an unfamiliar action. A place where everybody won't be afraid to sit at a dining table because no one is up to judge anyone or make rude remarks about someone's appearances or intelligence.

I will build a home where nobody interrupts and everybody listens. That peace can also be found in the living room, not just in the bedroom. I will build a home where it is okay to voice out one's opinion. Where it is not a sin to be honest.

I will build a home where you're allowed to be not okay. To be sick. To not go out for the day. Where weakness is not something to hide. Where everybody is allowed to show vulnerability. I will build a home where it's okay to be oneself without restrictions.

I understand that it will not be a perfect plan nor a perfect home, but it will be one that everybody needs, one that nobody will be left out. It will be hard to accomplish but it will be a safe space. It will not be grandeur or with a touch of extravagance but it will be enough for everybody to heal some parts that they cannot heal through medicine.

It will not be just made of woods and glasses, but also of comfort and promises. This is the home I will build.

This is my home, the home I have always longed to have.
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