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Thanatos is a familiar friend

I wonder how Thanatos will conduct himself,
When it finds me in a state of unreservedly perished.
Will it halt befuddled,
Wondering who took me,
Did the poison work before he arrived?
Or did I self-destruct
Because it definitely does not seem like I'm capable of doing so.

I wonder if he will be shocked when it hits him
That there's nothing left to aver
No soul attached,
No breath to purloin,
Just a body to burn.

Or will he chuckle silently,
Because the day finally arrived.
Where I shall be free.
For he recognizes I've been dead inside for ages.
And I have been preparing my own memorial service,
long before Thanatos came down and showed up.

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