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Excerpt from an email I never sent #3

My love, I know you can't wait to fall in love but please know that there are different kinds of love, and one of them is a toxic one.
You will probably laugh this off and deny it, you will probably promise me you're smart enough to choose your 'the one' but I know one of these days, you’re going to meet a guy who’s going to break you over and over again but still, you will love him with all your heart. Despite the ugliness of his soul, you’ll stay by his side and he’ll surely do the same too because you tolerate all his wrongdoings and hurtful actions towards you and that makes him contented with the relationship with you. You’ll want him through the good and the bad, especially the worst. Definitely the worst, because that's you. You always see the good in people. Your kindness is a double-edged sword. Good enough to lift others, good enough to cut yourself.
You will believe the idea that he'll change even when he didn't promise he will. 
You’ll love him so deeply that you’ll drown yourself from these feelings and it will feel like he is drowning too at the same time with the same intensity regardless of how many times he cheated on you. Because that’s love right? loving someone imperfect perfectly. 
And when you meet that kind of person who you can love despite the ugly monster inside him, when you think he can do the same to you, you'll think that maybe, just maybe, he’s the one. That maybe both of you are meant for each other so you allow yourself to love a monster, and you will make yourself believe the idea that the monster loves you too.
But my love, please remember that you go to a swimming pool because you enjoy swimming not because you can't wait to drown. So no, you also don't love someone so you could lose yourself. Life taught me that loving shouldn't be taxing. I'm hoping that when the day comes you meet a love that's not meant to stay, I hope you will remember your worth because I tell you, you deserve so much more, more than what the Universe will offer.

Love,
Mari Anne
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